I have been feeling over the last few weeks that I have let myself go. I am my heaviest (I think, I don’t weigh myself) I have ever been and I am definitely the largest clothing size I have ever been. My diet lately has been takeout and snack foods. That can’t be healthy.
Being vegan in Toronto, on one hand, is great, there are so many options at restaurants and grocery stores have so many great vegan convenience foods. It’s so easy to find vegan options everywhere I go. On the other hand, these options are not necessarily the healthiest.
When I first went vegan (permanently) I was doing it for the health reasons. I followed the Joel Fuhrman’s Eat to Live program and did decent at it, that went for about a month until I did the more general WFPB style diet. That I was combining with Weight Watchers for a good part of my undergraduate. My weight, while not where I would have liked at the time, was decent.
In my last year of Uni, I discovered the Fat Acceptance movement and the HAES stuff. I had convinced myself that it was ok to eat junk food with abandon. I ballooned in size. I started having to shop at plus size stores for the first time in my life.
After Uni I went straight into the world of work. My job is sedentary, sitting in front of a computer all day. I went from walking at least an hour every day to and from school to barely any activity at all. My weight went up even further.
I fully accept how I got here. Junk food and take out helped me cope with adjusting to the working world by taking the stress off of cooking. Not worrying about my weight let me focus on getting my foothold in my job and completing my degree with good grades. I don’t blame past me for this weight. I may be unhappy about it, but I was doing the best I could at the time. I only have so much coping ability.
Now I am going to try the WFPB style diet again mostly. I will still have some of the convenience foods in an absolute emergency type situation (ie no food in the fridge type thing). I bought the 22 days nutrition meal planner to get my self some new recipes. That’s the one endorsed by Beyoncé and Jay-Z, I’m not part of the Beyhive don’t worry. Today is my first part day starting it and we will see how this goes.
I hope to look back on this and remember where I came from.
On an unrelated note, I went to see the Sakura in High Park. Absolutely gorgeous.